It’s finally Thursday! Payday as always, and the day I go to the doctors. I’ve been anxiously awaiting for today, and it’s finally here.  The worst part about today was probably the ride to the doctors.  The closer we got to the office, the more anxious I got.  What am I going to expect?  How long is this going to take?  Is this doctor going to be friendly?.  Those were just a few out of many questions racing through my mind.  When I finally got there I had to fill out some paperwork first.  What sucked most was finding out that I am no longer on my dad’s health insurance anymore as of 4/23/10! WTF?  I don’t know why, maybe it’s the fact that I am now 20? who knows but it was kind of frustrating.  Luckily I was able to see the doctor and had to pay $40 for a checkup.

It all started off with a nurse escorting me to an oh so familiar scale.  In my mind I said to myself “Oh s***!  not the scale! I reluctantly  got on the scale. The weigh in? 105.8 lbs. Not too bad, but not great.  I’ve stayed the same for a while now, which is great for ED, but not good for me myself (trying to get back to a normal weight, and 105 is still underweight for someone who is my height of 5’6).  The nurse lead me to the room where I waited for the doctor.  Honestly, I believed that the nurse asked me more questions then the doctor.  When the doctor came in, I told him what was wrong, and he was basically like “Take some anti-depressants and come back in a month.”  “Here are two psychiatrists to call.” and “Take some antibiotics for the toes”. (cuz I have an infection on both big toenails.  And that was that.  Kinda disappointed.  I wish the doctor was a little bit more sensitive and understanding instead of just getting the job done. I anticipated much higher.  Maybe I should lower my standards for next time.

And that was that.  Honestly at this point I rather here a doctor say “You’re going to die in so and so months if you continue what you are doing”.  It shows me that they care, and this dude, honestly didn’t seem to care.  2 thumbs down for sure.

Here are my eats for the day.

Breakfast.

Lunch.

Snack.

Dinner.

Dessert. Chocolate yogurt mess w/ DCD’s this time! SO GOOD!

Late Night Snacks.

Minus the milk of course (only 100 cals w/o it)

And that’s it.  Can’t wait to pick up my “drugs” possibly tomorrow.  When the doctor said anti-depressants, I immediately thought that I will probably become addicted to it, and OD on them.  He says that I won’t and I can’t.  Really? Because I’ve heard of stories where people got addicted to drugs like anti-depressants (or maybe it was something else? idk but it was something a doctor prescribed) So I am a little apprehensive about that.  Does anyone else feel this way, that it’s kind of sad how we have to rely on drugs to get better?  Maybe it’s just me, idk.  LOL, now I feel hypocritical when I say “HUGS NOT DRUGS”.

Enjoy the rest of your evening! Goodnight.

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